A story for you...

So here is the thing about my life, I spent all of my adult life up until now with no romance save for the romances I would write, secretly envisioning myself as the female character. Describing her the way I wanted to look. I wanted to be thin and beautiful but instead I sat on my ass and gained weight. I use to be skinny until in high school I noticed no one like me the way they liked my friends. Every one of them had boyfriends and I never had anything. I fell in love with a vampire one night, he was pale and beautiful, and it was a tragic one sided romance. He taught me how to suffer and I let him.
I live under his influence as his pale beauty told me everything I did was perfectly normal and that I could live because he was alive.
He pushed aside a hero, he pushed aside the light and fed me the darkness. I could feel myself falling into his trap deeper and deeper I went until I was no more of myself and I was all him.
Years of this went on and I would continue to gain weight and dream of him and listen to only him, and his haunting music. My heart belonged in his hands, I could not even get it back at this point if I wanted to.
One day there was a thin rip in the veil he had placed over my eyes. And I saw someone else through this thin hole that had appeared. They were beautiful beyond anything my vampire had to offer, and they reminded me of that hero from so many years ago. I could suddenly see a light and darkness was starting to fade.
In a rage of darkness he cast another veil upon my eyes and I was blocked from the world once more. My heart only beat to the sound of his music, that hero from long ago still waiting for me to return, and those beauties trying to rip away this pain he held in front of me. And the devil himself waiting for my heart to be free once more. While the punk from my childhood knew in his heart I would always be in love with him.
The beautiful beings that rip the first veil sang a song in a melody that made the veil fall from my face as the darkness disappeared and gave way to the light behind the music. The hero was also freed from a prison the vampire had put him in. The devil smiled as I ran away trying to crawl back into my dark that had been my home for so long. But the hero held out his hand for me to take and I was set free from this blackness that had shrouded my life. Years of pain were lifted and weight came off, as I learned to be happy without darkness and I learned to love without pain. My heart came back to me in pieces as my family tried to glue the pieces back together and the hero, and the beautiful beings started to sew it together.
The punk smiled as he sang the songs from the past to remind me that it was all okay, and that as much as it was okay to not be okay, it was okay to be okay too. The beautiful creatures that brought the light back showed me that it was fine to have a dark heart without dying to do it. The hero reminded me that he too had been in love with the vampire and we saved each other without pain. And the devil took my hands as we danced under the moon light, and I fell in love once again as the vampire turned to ashes.

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I just wanted to live a little, I just wanted to say for once that I was alive without any judgment or pain. I wanted you to feel the same, I wanted you to know you had a heart in that rib cage of yours. I wanted you to understand what fear was, I wanted you to know that you were alive. I wanted it to be my last sign of life, I wanted to watch the light disappear from your eyes as mine were bright with life. I wanted us to both live a little that day. I wanted it to be your last breath.

I was sitting at my desk waiting for the clock to strike upon the hour. This day had been going so slow I could not even feel time moving. I was watching the clock “grr you never watch the clock” I said to myself as I looked back at my computer. I clicked on Facebook real quick to see if I had a message from my sweetheart. She was such a sweet girl, I loved her so much. I clicked on my messages, I had two one from my sweet angel and one from my brother.

I wanted you to understand the pain you put me through. I wanted you to know how much you had hurt me. I wanted you to feel the way I felt. I want to see the tears in your eyes as you knew what was like to be betrayed by someone you loved. I wanted to see your pain on my hands. I wanted to live for a moment. I wanted to no longer be the doormat everyone walked over.

Time to clock out. I was so happy the day was over my heart was ecstatic to be going home to my angel girl. I hoped she would be waiting there for me. Our anniversary was tonight and I hoped tonight would be the night she wanted to take it to the next level. She had asked to wait because she wanted it to be special and that made me happy. I felt like it meant we were truly in love.

I just wanted to know why you would hurt me so. Why did you have to mentally rip my heart out of my chest? What did I do to you other than being a great boyfriend, when did I ever hurt you? Why? I just want to know why? You made me do this to you? Why couldn’t you just have loved me the way I loved you? Why did you have to cheat my heart?

I walked into the house flowers in hand and I could hear a noise coming from the back bedroom/ bathroom. I assumed she was in the shower. I heard the noise again, it sounded like my brother’s laugh. So I walked towards the door and I heard her moan his name and everything went red…

I walked away from the door and I slowly headed into the kitchen where I grabbed the knife that was sitting on the counter. My heart pounding in my ears, as I stepped into my bedroom where you were on the bed, your legs spread and my brother’s face between them. I just wanted you to feel how I felt in that moment. I wanted to hear you scream for me instead of for him. You should not have worried about him he had already felt the pain I had. I still smile when I think of the fear in your eyes. The color of your warm blood turning cold on my hands, for once I felt alive, just because I wanted you to feel how I had felt.

Cool Halloween story.

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