What's on your mind

Yes it was

More often than not, it's hard to have confidence and hope.

ShadowTalker wrote:

More often than not, it's hard to have confidence and hope.

You should have them both.... I know that I have them FOR you!

I always have hope, confidence not so much

..I hear a marching band playing in the middle of the woods.

..I need to delve more into my arts than the stuff that I know that keeps me in a melancholy depressed "secure" state of mind..

ShadowTalker wrote:

..I hear a marching band playing in the middle of the woods.

I hear a marching band this time of year when I go outside at my work.... I've been told that Lapper High School students practice in a field by Lake Pleasant.

ShadowTalker wrote:

..I need to delve more into my arts than the stuff that I know that keeps me in a melancholy depressed "secure" state of mind..

I can see how that could be...

So...
I have a lot a my mind...
1) I'm scared my friend is going to get hurt by moving too fast
2) I think I might get Kat's cold
3) I sad that school is starting soon because I will miss my sisters
4) I'm nervous and excited about my older sister coming home
5) This has been the best year I have ever had

1) I do not want school to start
2) my daughter coming home scares the shit out of me
3) my daughter coming home makes me very happy.
4) I do not want summer to end
5) I can not wait for Autumn.
6) I have Kat's cold

^^^ There are a lot of contradictions in there lol

I have quite a bit on my mind as well, most of it should be kept to myself so no one else has to deal with it...

^ There is a big difference between "dealing with it" and "trying to help"

^^Not much people can do to help with my so called problems

trying to keep calm is on my mind

But sometimes talking about what is on your mind can help you deal with it.

I know it is just shit that I worry about

Shit dissolves in water!!!!!!! Worry get a permanent place on your face!

This will be the first (and only) Lapeer Days I work at a Restaurant downtown.

Mother Nature can go to hell

I can't get someone off my mind...

..I don't care if you are around.. You are dead to me. You have caused me more pain than needed. The only regret I have towards you is the fact that I allowed myself to be played in your game of life. Every time I've tried to forgive you, you gave me reason not to. I've even tried to own up and take the blame but it was never enough. It's been over a year now and I have no words for you. I do not care what your situation is, you brought it upon yourself. If I never hear or see you again it will be too soon..

Yes I still love you.. Yes I often think about what life would have been like if we had our shit together.. But to sit there and accuse me of everything? Whose to say it was even my doing? I still drive by the old apartment.. I still listen to the old songs.. and I often feel sad about how things ended up.. But you know what? I *TRIED*.. I tried to be the guy you wanted.. I tried to be the guy you needed.. When you sit there and accuse me of lie after lie (even when I have substantial evidence otherwise).. You want to claim the victim? Guess what? I don't care anymore.. You are nothing but a bad dream in my past and I am going to eradicate every single piece of evidence you ever existed in my life.

I'd wish nothing but ill and unfortunate upon you, but that would be a blessing. Besides.. Karma is a bitch.. You are getting what you deserve!! It hurts me to see you suffer, but to know you are putting someone through much worse than you did me, more than makes up for it. We are merely strangers with memories.


*sigh*

God DAMN I feel better after writing this all out!!!!

Edit: I will explain in greater detail if requested..

I am glad writing that does make you feel better. I am curious if you want to explain......

In other news, I think I get to walk in commencement in May. (I've never walked in graduation.)

Well good for your! By the way, it is boring.